Tuesday, March 31, 2015
For someone like me, this is gonna be so difficult. Sigh.
On a lighter note, thank God for the nicest people He has placed around me—people who I'm close and those whom I'm not so close to. No matter big or small, significant or not so, they've been a blessing in my life. They're the reason why I keep doing the things I do without feeling judged nor restricted and also why despite the heavy emotions I feel from time to time, I fall asleep every night believing tomorrow will be a better day.
Friday, January 23, 2015
If someone can step into my head for a short moment now I think they would be confused. Because I am confused. If I can put into words all that tangled up thoughts and emotions, I would. And slowly unwind them all. I think I'm speaking in literature now because behind these words are a lot of underlying thoughts and feelings which I cannot even decipher myself.
I wish I know what I should do now and actually be disciplined enough to not give in, to my emotions—or anything.
I should just drown myself with work.
And I need food too.
Perhaps the bottom line is that I feel like I'm putting too much expectations upon myself ugh.
Tuesday, December 23, 2014
Oh my I'm so sleepy
and probably some shopping too
It's almost the end of 2014!!!
This year is probably on the top of the list for being the year full of emotional roller coaster rides that eventually ended up in a wreck but I guess when things are already so bad, anything that happens after can only be better things.
Here's to a better 2015!
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
Feeling comforted by all the better things that are happening outside my life and very, very thankful for the rainy weather these few days. Helped me to calm down a lot, feel peace, and think positive thoughts. (Don't judge me, I don't think rainy days are emo days)
I'm still far from being completely alright, but I'm getting there; no more one step forward and two steps back.
Here's to a better future ahead.
Wednesday, November 19, 2014
Thursday, October 2, 2014
I thought that was it, until they came back again. This time I have no idea where their nest is and all I've been doing is killing them with my fingertips and sticking them on tapes.
WHERE DO THEY COME FROM.
But despite me ranting, you have no idea how bad I feel whenever I kill them. If possible I would rather leave them alone and let them mind their stuffs, cause you know, they're constantly working and surviving hard for the rest of their colony.. but then I wouldn't want to sleep in an ant-infested room either. It's such a dilemma really, but thank God for pest-(or rather, ant) controlling sera who never fails to be heartless to them tiny creatures. Although it would be a separate case when it comes to anything else she deems as insect—basically all insects, reptiles, amphibians, arachnids, mollusks and the rest of all invertebrates.
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Saturday, August 9, 2014
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
People come and go, and it doesn't really matter if some were meant to stay or disappear in our lives. What's important is that whoever these people may be, they are/were people we've made memories with and that is what I will treasure for the rest of my life.
I am still in the same state as I was since that day, but today, I will start learning to accept the circumstances as it already is and treasure what I have in my hands now, because we never know if things are going to stay the same tomorrow.
People enter into our lives for a reason greater than what we may actually think, so that's why no matter how much frustration or heartaches faced, I have to eventually move on. Perhaps things might never go back to the way it was, but I'm glad I get to experience more in life—events that helped me grow.
I am sad, and yes I am still broken.
But count your blessings Dee, count your blessings.
Monday, July 28, 2014
Friday, July 25, 2014
It's not over yet, and it's tough. But despite my swollen eyes, I'm very blessed to feel the warmth and love from the many people who cares (and not mind how ugly and dishevelled I looked), no matter how simple—whether it's to offer a packet drink, a short text, anonymous messages, hugs and percy pigs.
I'm not strong enough yet and I still cry every now and then, but it definitely helped me to keep going.
Thank you :')
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
I'm beginning to wonder if I truly bounced back everytime or merely just putting up a strong front only to see it crashing down the next.
Oh God what should I do :'/
Monday, July 7, 2014
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
God, give me the capacity and discipline that I really, really, desperately need in this period.
Help me to stay positive and cheerful despite the immensely overwhelming things of all kinds; help me to be still and know that with You, all things will work together for good.